You're So Anti, Don't I Matter!?

My roommates call me antisocial. Really? Because I don't bring 50million guys to the room? Or because I don't try to meet the 50million guys they bring to the room? That shit blows me. On the real. I hate that there's always some random dude walkin around our room. But thats not the point. I don't think I'm anti-social at all. I'll admit I stay in my room and to myself a lot, but I'm just very particular about who I allow into my life. People give off vibes. And you can feel the vibes when you meet someone, its up to you to listen to them or not. I'm sensitive to those vibes. Having a lot of different people can equate to a lot of different drama. And they're wondering why they already have rumors going around, or why people are mad at them already. Its because you're too damn open. I'm really not anti-social. If anything I just have my priorities straight. I mean yeah this is college, and a big part of it is being social, but this school costs too much for me to bullshit around because I wanna be known, or be popular, or have a million and one people around all the time. I honestly think I just haven't found the right people, that I can fuck with hard yet. I mean you meet people that are cool, and who you can chill with on occasion, but I haven't found anybody to be like a real person I can get down with. I mean I'm cool with my roommates, but I don't really fuck with any of them hard like I did with people back home. I don't feel anti-social, maybe socially awkward, but not anti social. What I mean by socially awkward is that sometimes I just don't fit in with the group. Like all of my roommates will be talking about some guy and I'll drop knowledge or something totally obvious to me and they'll just be like "wtf". Or I'll make a joke that I think is really funny, but they don't laugh. Lol okay, thats just me feeling like 'damn, I wasted a joke on you mofos'. But yeah, I was really worried about the social aspect of college before I came. Now, not so much. I was worried I wouldn't make friends and stuff but now I'm just chill. I feel like I can be me without putting myself out there, because that's what they do. They feel the need to go to all the parties and events and thats just not my goal in college. So I'm pretty much gonna just let it happen.

 

 I think my roommates just don't know the difference between anti-social and reserved.