No really. I guess I joked about thinking I was anti social, but being here at orientation is making me really think about it. Am I just being shy for no reason, or is this really a problem? Idk anymore. I could just be taking it too seriously and being too hard on myelf. I mean, a lot of people here are being just as shy as me, or at least they're acting like they are. Do I have a right to be shy in this situation and at this moment? I will admit Im not being nearly as shy as usual, I mean Im talking to people, but Im still not all the way comfortable with people if that makes sense. So yeah, i've been reading Black Boy, by Richard Wright and its basically his autobiography. It really goes in depth about why he couldn't act like he was expected to around white people. Basically his upbringing made it difficult for him to hold his tongue and regard whites as superior. Well its got me wondering what the hell kinda upbringing I had that makes me so weird around people. Is it because as a kid my mom always spoke for me and introduced me to people? Idk, maybe its genetics and I really do have more in common with my dad than I like to think. He's really shy too, but those are things you really have to get over in the working world. Im just gonna hope that this is a product of a wack group and roommates I have nothing in common with for now. Idk it feels weird now but I also feel like with my real roommates it won't be this bad. *crosses fingers and hopes the shyness passes*