Man senior checkout was pretty hectic, but the highlight of it all was my band checkout. Our director was like he had to sign out on our marching band uniforms and most people kept their shit all over the place. I always put my uniform back in the right place and it was always neat so when it came to me checking it in I felt great. It wasn't that great of an accomplishment but it felt really good that my organization had really payed off.
Umm in other news my older sister came to town for the weekend. It was pretty fun I suppose. It made me realize that I really am growing into myself because the old me would have been in my feelings about some of the stuff she said. My sis isn't exactly reserved when she talks to anyone, and the wrong person could get their feelings hurt if they take her words to heart. The wrong person just happened to be our little sister. They were talking about something and my younger sis said something smart, so my older sis kinda kirked on her. Lil sis got in her feelings something slight and mom kinda had to mediate. I could see it all happening because my younger sis really looks up to big sis and basically her word is law. Anything she says baby sis will take really seriously and think she has to do that. I on the other hand, have become somthing like my own person so when she says slick stuff to me I can just brush it off. I think that made me enjoy her stay even more.
Hmm saturday I went to the gf's house while her parents weren't home. Uh we were gonna 'chill' then go to our friend's birthday dinner. I got there around 5, the dinner wasn't till 7. But yeah, shawty was playin with me. First off we were on the phone while I was driving there and she talkin bout she gotta take a shower. I was cool with that. I got there and she opened the door in some boxers and a bra. I was cool with that. Then she's talkin bout what is she gonna wear, and oh I gotta get in the shower. Blah blah. I was cool with that. I'm tryna help her pick out something to wear to the dinner. She starts the shower and asks me about wearing heels. I was cool with that. So she's going through her closet trying on shoes, and I gotta say a woman in heels is one of my weaknesses. So here I am, sitting on her bed, her in a towel and some black pumps. I was cool with that. She finally gets in the shower, and comes out drippin wet. Of course I beat it. Fuck am I supposed to do? Shit was nice. She loved it so I was good. So yeah we go to dinner and it was fun. Had a good time with her, and she didn't do too much. It was kind of annoying because with this group of friends I'm used to being the 'funny person' and since she was there I had to spend an equal amount of time boo-loving. I was cool with that. After dinner we just sat in the car and talked. There was a lot going on in both of our minds and we sorta got it out, but as always I kept some of it in to avoid an unnessesary conflict. I dropped her off home and that was that.
Uhhh sunday I went to church with madre and my sisters. Mom came in the room off the early and asked me to wear a dress. I complied with no argument. Of course mom thought I had an attitude, but there was no way I was even gonna try to argue out of that one. After church the first lady took us to lunch. We went to this really cool chinese restaurant where they cook the food in front of you. Man it was awesome. I loved every minute of it. The chef was soo funny too. I definately wanna take the gf there as soon as I get some money. I came home and me and the gf were talking and I fell asleep. She makes a huge deal about it saying 'she can't keep my attention'. blah. I was just tired. Get over it.
Sigh. Today is my first day out of school. I've been moderately productive. I addressed my grad announcements and made some extra ones for other people madre wanted to have one. Other than that I've been chilling. Listening to music and eating. I could probably gain 15 pounds by the time graduation is here if I stay in the house every day. I don't plan on doing that but it feels good to be able to sit around the house all day. Um I need to call the bestie so we can figure out what we're doing this week. I also gotta do this housing survey and pick my meal plan for st. john's. Uhhh gf had to take hsa's today and the rest of the week. I really don't know how long this is going to last because she called me today talking about how much she misses me and how she can't concentrate and asking when I'm coming up to the school. blah. Its super nice outside. I think I'm gonna work on skateboarding.
I really really need to start getting into a routine. I want to get back in shape, find a job and get some reading done. I'm thinking of running every morning. I ran some mornings last summer but I didn't do it consistantly. I really want to be consistant with it though. I have no clue how to motivate myself though. I figure that if I get a job that will give me motivation to run because I'll have money to spend on clothes that will look good on an in-shape body. Lol. Gotta find a job first though. After I finish this blog I'm gonna put in mad applications, and send off my announcements. I also need to write in to my administrator so I can get more tickets for graduation. I have 10 now, and I need about 15 more. Hopefully a lot of my family members will come. That would be really exciting. I want a job first though. Lately I've been feeling like a burden on my mom. There's a lot of places I want to go that I need money for and I always ask her. I'm sick of being a parasite. I WANT to provide for myself. I want to have money. I welcome having to pay for gas, and paying my own bills. I don't want to be so sheltered anymore, getting everything I want. Its just not where I want to be in my life.
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