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May 10, 2009

Yup Thats My Girlfriend...


Got a new one, its been like a year since the last one.
We're like official, with the titles and everything.
She's young, but not immature. Bold but not brash.
I like her. I didn't tell her we'd stay together when I go to school, but I didn't say we'd break up either. I really don't know what will happen.

I'm not gonna lie, she bugs the shit outta me sometimes. She gets in her feelings a lot, and she's selfish sometimes. Either I haven't been in a relationship for a while and shit changed or she is just too much for me to handle.

Honesty she makes me want to be a sweetheart. She makes me want to take care of her, hold her, kiss her, and be all around gentle. She makes me smile when I see her.

But then she texts me a thousand times a day talkin' bout how much she misses me, when I just walked her to class. So what am I supposed to do? Not text her back? I mean I guess I just don't miss her like that or I just don't feel the need to text her to death. Its like she's not even giving me time to miss her.

That's what it is. Because I'd really miss her if we didn't talk for a day or if I didn't see her, but since we constantly text and see each other I don't miss her. Hmmm

Idk if I can tell her that though. Like when I try to tell her stuff she either reads wayy too much into it or doesn't get it so I drop it. I don't wanna say something and cause some drama to have her in her feelings because I don't want to deal with that.

Am I running from emotions? Hmmm maybe. I like this girl but I don't like having to talk to her all the time. I like my space.

She says I make her feel ways she's never felt before and such, but its got me wondering if I am really a superhero or supervillian. Am I the wolf in sheep's clothing? I seem like this great girlfriend and such, but this shit is monotonous. All these girls are the same, they fall quick and get left fast. I don't want that to happen with her, but I can see it already.

Why me? Why do I have to be the sweetheart? Why am I always the one to save the damsel in distress? Why am I the way out??

These girls find me and I treat them no different than how I believe a girl should be treated then all of a sudden I'm amazing. They just don't get that everyone should treat them that way and its not so special. Its a lovehate thing. I love treating girls the way I do, but they get too clingy so I run.

Blah blah, I been rappin. So for now she's my girl. I think imma tell her to chill out with the lovey dovey mess. Maybe.

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