Yo what the fuck?!!
Then I went back to read one of my friends' blogs about dating younger people and I come across my response to it. Here's what I said:
Get the fuck outta here!?!
Honestly I think age makes a pretty big difference. I'm only 17, but I don't like dating girls younger than me, and I only tolerate girls my age for the most part. The mentality just isn't there with younger girls. They're very immature relationship-wise and I've found they're more close-minded. Its not even a bad thing because they're young and they should act like little girls, make mistakes and take the wrong things too seriously. If you expect a 16year old to act like a 20year old, then you will be dissapointed because no matter how mature she claims to be she's still only 16.
Posted by OFF.Brand from mobile, 02/18/09 06:56 PM delete
My current girlfriend, the one I told I love after only 4 days, is friggin 16. I just want to smack the shit out of myself for this dumb shit. I could rationalize and tell myself that the me who posted the response on my friend's blog was younger and didn't understand, or wasn't fully developed but for what?
I posted that 3 months ago. Now here I am dating a 16year old. Geesh these are the issues I have with myself...
Anyways I didn't really mean to tell her I love her. And once again I could rationalize and tell myself well I do have love for her, I'm just not IN love with her. Blah fuckin blah. Its all bullshit. The honest to god truth is that I said it because I didn't want her to be mad at me for some dumb shit I did. I'm really feeling her but its not there yet. Its just so much worse because I was the one all adamant about not catching feelings for her and not being in love. I know. Its just completely wrong. But am I going to tell her the honest truth? Nope. Know why? Because I'm not the superhero. I am the villain.
I've been having this argument with myself for a while now. I come off as the knight in shining armor who comes to save the girl, and I play that role for the most part. After that I become the villain. I do dirt.
Now when I say I become the villain I mean that I do things that I know are wrong. Like I will tell you I love you without thinking, just to get out of trouble. And there's the real trickery, because you'll be so infatuated with the fact that I just told you I love you that you don't see that I was lying. So I guess I'm a hypocritical supervillain?
Geesh. I wish I could take back what i said to her. Not that it couldn't happen, just not now. I gotta explain it all to her.
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