STOP.
WHAT'S THAT?
THE EX IS HERE!!!
That's right people. My infamous ex is back. Yeah you know the one I love/d with all my heart and wanted to give the world to. Yeah the one I couldn't stop caring about even if I tried. OOOOhhhh geesh. I don't even know what to write. I care about her more than I care about me. Her happiness means more to me than I can even explain.
So I wrote a note of facebook pinpointing some important people in my life and she was one of em. She commented on the note to the means of 'its never too late to pick up where we started'. Well I called her and we were just rapping for the most part. Something we haven't done in the longest time. I was a little bit nervous, so I didn't outright ask her what I wanted to. When I finally got around to talking about it she said she wanted me. But there are so many things getting in the way of us just being happy together like we should have been for two years already. I mean I'm going to college in NY, she's going to college here, she works, she lives in DC, and OH YEAH! I HAVE A FUCKIN GIRLFRIEND!!!
Shit. She could not have worse timing. Like I love that girl to death, but I can't just up and drop the girlfriend because that just isn't fair. There was a time two years ago when I would've just dropped any girl to have her back. I've moved past that and I don't plan on going back to that stage of getting over her. I still love my ex with my whole entire being and I really would like the chance to be with her again, but like she said, she doesn't want to put herself in that situation to have 'the summer of her life' and then I'm just gone. Its very understandable, and I wouldn't want to put her in that place.
Moving on. Sunday I didn't go to church with mom I went to downtown DC and rode around on my bike with padre. It was pretty great. I enjoyed the excersise, the fresh air, the people. It kinda blew me that random ass pedestrians wanna walk slow as shit when I'm tryna ride a bike behind em. And I started noticing a different kind of look from people. I'm used to getting the 'is that a guy or girl look', or the nose turned up 'at a youngster' look, even the 'black' look you get from white people sometimes when they aren't trying to supress it. The look I got though was a 'Oh my gosh a black girl with her father' look. Like people were so surprised to see a black father still in his child's life. It was an awkward look for me to get. Someone would look at me then at my dad then at our bikes then back at my dad like they didn't believe he was my real father or like they were expecting him to dissappear into thin air. I like going out with my dad. I never have to worry about what I'm wearing like I do with my mom. He never makes me feel like less of a person by the way he looks at me.
In other news I'm working hard as hell to get a job. Looks like I'll be working at six flags. Now a lot of people are looking at me like I'm crazy; 17 years old and working at a theme park with a bunch of 15 year olds? Well six flags money is just as good as anywhere else's so I'm damn sure gonna spend it. Only problem is all this fucking red tape I gotta go through with getting a work permit. This is the most ridiculous shit ever. I was already blown because I thought since I was 17 I wouldn't have to get one, but I had to get an application for the permit from the school. Then I had to go to six flags and have them fill out some information. Then I have to put that information on this pg county website, and get a recipt to say I imput the information. Next I have to take the application and the recipt back to the school. Now its gonna take another two days for the school to verify the work permit. And I have to do that every time I get a job. Its just so unnessesary and frustrating. I was done with all of six flags' other shit like the interview and drug test. If I was 18 I could have started working this sunday and would have had my first check on friday. Now I'll have to wait at least until Thursday for the work permit and sunday to go through training. Its such bullshit. I'm already out of school so why do I have to get a work permit? I think my parents' signature should be enough. Hopefully I can work there of get some lifegaurd gig within the next week.
Upcoming events! Prom is saturday, gettin my hair done tomorrow and nails done thursday [ugh]. I'm excited even though my mom hasn't started my dress yet. lol. I'm not worried though. Um graduation the 8th, and I'm trying to have a cookout or something. Idk how that's gonna work because I have too many friends to exclude some. I'll figure something out.
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